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ACCOUNTING REVISION: DAY 2.

一样自己走在回家的路,
却突然发现自己有些孤独.
天空下有几颗脆弱的心,
找寻着那双共鸣的眼睛.
我怀疑,一直在等待的人
真的就是你..
直到看着星星想到你,
望着太阳想到你,
少了你会莫名的空虚.
我才终于开始去相信,
是谁出现在梦裡,
而你就是唯一的唯一..
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START OF ACCOUNTING REVISION: DAY ONE.

thoughtless

when many thoughts add up,just swallow it and allow it to digest.

i learnt my lesson.
i need some happy pills!that can make me smile like this (:

pimple outbreak!

EDITED

感恩。
感谢今天的一切。
有那么丰富的一餐,那么美好的天气，
还有不能忘了感谢您能让我和朋友之间的友情慢慢变得更好了。(:
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my face.is infested with pimples.
RAHHHH.

okay.back to studying.
jia you jia you jia you!

somewhere,somehow,someday.

sha la la

Happy Birthday, Peiwen!

hope you had loads of fun with all of us.haha.and the unforgettable truth or dare. (:

thank you too.for talking sense into me.for being so 坦白with me.it made me see things clearer through others perspective.

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things seems to be better now.and i did not even realise that how my sensitivity towards things could make things worst and even make people distance themselves away from me.but really,after that talk.i feel better and of course,apologetic towards them for my actions.i will try to control my emotions.and i proud to say that i am learning.so,please dun lose faith in me as your friend,because i know,we do cherish this friendship of ours.(:

just as things are getting better,i seriously pray hard that nothing will affect me for now.and let everything go smoothly.no more tears,no more emotions.

i know, 感恩.

i am really thankful that my prayers were answered.and i will change for the better.

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full swing mode for exams?

not really.

i took the first step to try to make things right.and right now,i can do nothing but to wait.

i want everything to be alright.but it seems,its not getting any better,but getting aloads worst.
imagine from one to zero,from zero to nothing at all.

i want to be brave enough and hit it straight to the point but not beat around the bushes.it would be great if they are reading this and know who i am talking bout.

i cannot take it anymore.

if it makes you happy seeing me in this state,i got nothing much to say anymore.you should know how it feels.it happened to you before too.it made you troubled for a period of time didn't it?
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i dun see the need to be so sneaky.i know there is a better choice out there,tell me straight that you are interested too.or i should say,i know you were interested all along.dun talk to me about deals and plans anymore because the higher i hold my hopes,the greater i am going to fall.
so,just go,do whatever that deems fit.and leave me alone.

&trust me,i know.

fallen in and gotten out in time.and it hurts.
pls god,let things be better.or at least let me know what really happened.

something different

people say, whenever you go overseas to study,must experience new things.and i think.i experienced much of it already.i sprained my hand,met some dodgy people and now,gotten into the emergency department in Brisbane because of my asthma.

and nope,dun come worrying first.cos i am fine now.(:

i'm fine in a way,not really that fine in another. ):

you tell me,what's wrong between all of us.

mentally tired; emotionally depressed

i thought if the whole world turn onto me, i would have a friend like you to lean on.

apparently, i was wrong bout it.

and.my chest feels so constricted now.
a hug and a 'everything will be okay' would be good at this point of time.

i miss him.

two major shites in two consecutive weeks.

all alone.

Way back into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind..

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere..

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end..

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end..
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this song is superbly nicee.
a track from the movie, Music and Lyrics.
i know, charmaine is so gonna say i am so LAG.cos when i was back in sg, she was the one that was crazy about this song and bug me to ask my friend to dl it for her.so now,here i am,repeating this song over and over again.heh.

i am suppose to do some studying within these 2 hours break but i have already wasted one hour of it.tsk.but nvm,i tell myself to work hard for these 4 days and enjoy on friday and saturday.den back to study mode on sunday.

there are so many things i need to settle before the examinations draws in!
so many things, so little time.

and i know,that you dun wanna be involved.even though you're listening half heartedly, i find myself talking to no one but myself.
so,i guess its true.actions speakes louder than words.



fall in love.

thank you.

thank you cousin simin, ly, sandy, div, shane, peiwen, dilys.

for being here;
for listening;
for tolerating;
for advising;
for the late nights;
for trying to cheer me up.

i appreciate it.alot. (:

emo nemo part II

so as it seems that what dinyar said is true,"you're in no one's clique what!'
yeah.i know.

start of this long emo period till the end of the semester.can't wait to get home and close out to ipswich and everything here.
wonder how it would be to take the plane home alone.

damn.damn.damn.

emo nemo.

i tell myself it's not how long the time is spent but the quality of the time spent.it's the company that matters.

i will not know what will happen in the future.so,i tell myself why not enjoy the present?as much as i know there are so much bitching going on,i need to be pretentious to my surroundings.its a matter of tolerance isn't it?or,issit just retribution.i think,serves me right.

feeling kinda emotional now and jay chou is not helping much anymore. ):

fallen.

i ♥ snickers!

another gloomy day.
makes everything seems so emo and sad..

just had lunch with sandy and ya,obviously she did the cooking.cos i dun really know how to cook!thankful to have a friend and housemate like her too!hees.and.and!i am munching on snickers now!omg.i realised i gave up on my kinder bueno becos its too expensive here.heh.
*hint to LY: get me loads of kinder bueno when i am back hor! heh heh.

having some problems with the accounts assignment.there are too many questions going through my head.i need some answers.i am afraid it would be too late cos the deadline is on tuesday. ):

might update a lil later.the internet is getting cranked up.shite.

truth or dare?

started accounts assignment this morning and ended not long ago.and.its still not done.it does not seems to be as easy as it seems.

kinda tired.must be due to yesterday's late night sleep and the loads of things that was on my mind.but.things are well now,or i suppose. (:

went to fatseas with akwilan,div and shane to get their dinner this evening.it was raining,and its the first time ever since i came here to walk in the rain.on the way when we were making our way back,div asked this random question of would we still stay in touch even after we graduate.dunno what's gotten into him to be so emo all of the sudden,asking questions as though we are leaving tml or something.and something that surprised me was that i dun even know how we ended up playing truth or dare at the dinner table.i like this kind of time,spending quality time with friends and trying to pry into each other life more.heh.

i think,i would miss these times once this semester is over.
cos,everyone would be moving out.
and i know everything would never be the same again..

*sidenote: my dad is better le! yays! (: (:

Pathetic.

be who you are, and say what you feel, because the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter, don't mind.

whenever i go to riverlink,i would visit gloria jeans for my reg caramelatte.it never fails me to have a look at their board with meaningful quotes that touches me one way or another.
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a very slack day for me i should say.did grocery shopping with dilys this afternoon and caught a not-so-enjoyable movie with a couple of my housemates.walking to the cinema made me notice and realise some stuff.it seems like i can never have the right amount of fun everytime my heart is set out to enjoy; and i would not fit into the picture somehow.
the higher the expectation,the greater the disappointment.isnt it?

feeling a little emotional&upset now.cos of something i know i shouldnt even get affected by.
sometimes i wonder am i being the way i should be?being sensitive about things and getting all-so-agitated bout some nonsensical stuff.something i couldnt really understand myself would be making of joke out of one of my housemates and not being able to take it lightly when its played back at me.however,i am really thankful to them and those around me for being so understandable. (:
but i think for this time,we went too far didnt we?where is the trust i thought we had?
我要的安慰去了那里？

and i think,i am falling for it unknowingly.
its the last thing on my mind for now..

i'm worried sick.
cos my mom says that my dad is in the hospital.cos he is not feeling that well.vomit and feeling dizzy.

my sis says he is being hospitalised; my mom says he is going home now.

i dun even know which is which.what is what.

god.pls let him recover soon.
and.
pls let my family,my friends and everyone around me to be healthy,safe and sound.

女儿红 - 周杰伦

雨停下的天空. 灰的更加老旧.
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手.
我晒干了承诺. 灰的更加懵懂.
就算做事做错也只是怕错过
在一起走. 分开了走.
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛.
你若退后. 我能承受.
在最后的出口. 在爱过哪儿才有.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里. 不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
把故事听到最后才说再见.
你送我的眼泪. 让他留在雨天.
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...
被淋湿的天空. 灰的更加老旧.
你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手
我晒干了承诺. 灰的狠冲动
就算做事做错也只是怕错过
在一起走. 分开了走.
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛.
你若退后. 我能承受.
在最后的出口. 在爱过哪儿才有.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里. 不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
把歌词听到最后再说再见.
你送我的眼泪. 让他留在雨天.
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...
你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有说谎的力气.请告诉我.
而暂停算不算放弃.
我只有那一天的回忆...
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里. 不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
哦.把歌词听到最后再说再见.
你送我的眼泪. 让他留在雨天.
哦.如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...

rap部分
你说过我不该.
在这时说爱你. 要怎麽证明我没有力气.
可是暂停却算不算放弃.
我说我不该不该. 不该在这时才说爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有力气.
我只有一天回忆

love-hate affair

damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.damn you.

rants.but i am still not feeling okay.

i dun care what you think,but i do care what you say about me.so what if the whole world believes on what you said?
i trust that in one of the many,there will be a true friend for me.

i seriously,regret paying that amount of money that is gonna tie me down for a year.

back from sydney!
shall keep it all with me.not wanting to elaborate these mixed feelings.

i realised.how much i do not fit into this picture.
i realised.that i am regretting it.
i realised.that i have no more choice.

i realise,i might have been all alone,all along.
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final exams schedule
6thNov- ACCT1101
8thNov- TOUR2004
11thNov- MGTS1301
15thNov- EVNT2002

dunno whether this is a good arrangement.or not.