okays.. above are some random photos taken on my birthday.
at jack's place, at home, at t3, at kallang leisure park.
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i'm tired from work. i wanna learn new things! but the motivation is not there. damn.
i wanna eat cakes, but i got no money yet. damn.
i wanna go shopping, but i got no money. damn.

talks bout money is making me go mad. zzz.

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the feeling of leaving everything behind is getting into me.

it's sad, isn't it?

thanks to my family for the cake and presents.
thanks to ly, mouse, lum, geline and als for that midnight surprise.
thanks to ly, lum, yas, kayya and wanchieh for bringing me to ice skate
thanks to jie for coming to the dinner.
thanks to all for the cake, bear and wishes.

happy birthday to me, of course.
and i'm twenty.

okay. photos will be uploaded later on when i get it.

what to say? really a great birthday i had so far. it was midnight and i was youtubing as usual, den there was this sound like someone trying to open my door. i thought it was my dad cos he said he would pass me my laptop once he was done with it. den when i opened the door, to my HORROR. yes, horror i would say, i heard, SURPRISE! den i saw lum, ly, geline, als and mouse! hahas. horror is due to the fact that i was dressed shabbily and my hair was in a mess. shocked and surprise cos i din expect this one. given that my parents and siblings sleep early through the night and stuff. the other surprise was mouse. i din expect her to be with them, given that ly doesnt have and number and stuff? den after all the cake cutting and stuff, we sat down and chit chat. and due to mouse's curfew, thanks to xael to send her home. hahas.den after that we went to T3 for some phototaking. and den proceeded to newton circus for supper.

woke up at 12.44pm and went to get ready to meet the girls for ice skating. talking bout it, i swear that i'm not going there ever again. twenty years in my life, first time i fell and i had cuts on my elbows. damn. ahhhhhh.. after that torturous two hours, it ended! hahas. and thanks to yas for the donut! heh. after that we went to meet the rest for dinner at marina's jack's place. ly and lum disappeared to somewhere else though. dunno go where. waited for the rest to come. all of them were late as usual. zzz. lum and ly came back with a bear in a big box. i think it's from the build a bear workshop. the bear is the one i wanted and they dressed it up in straw skirt and coconut shells! the special part was the heart beat part. the bear has heartbeat! and there was a recording with ly's voice. darn. i'm so gonna have a nightmare. lols. den when we starting eating le, jie came. i was stunned. cos i din expect her to come. given that she will be working the next day and she just came back from hk the day before. after our meal, we had my cake! yayness. my elephant cake. hehe. and it was kinda paiseh cos they played the happy birthday song through the pa system. and the rendition of the song was kinda oldish. lols. dinner ended and we went for bowling. yas went home cos she was not feeling well. hope she is feeling better now!

all in all, to sum it up. i had fun! and i enjoyed thoroughly. other then the ice skating part la.
and for the emo part, i just wanna say, this makes me see you more clearly, makes me understand how much i mean to you.

i wanna sing like him! he's from bang bang tang. though not that good looking but his voice. i've been repeating this video for like dunno how many times. got feel! i know the ly will say too slow liao. but it's emo! i like! lols.

was working at paragon yesterday with a new supervisor and of course its the first time i get to see her. i dunno what had happened, during the 8hours of work, she cried and cried. annie says she is under too much stress. well, i can say retail line isn't very fun either. darn. but i dun miss deli too la.

jake's 20th yesterday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAKIE!

started working at forum already. it's only the third day and i'm tired already. working life is kinda mundane isn't it? the only joy is to meet different people and look at all the pretty clothes!

anyway. went bugis with ly today.
and i think i saw tyl. i think it's him, i think it's not. but my heart did stopped for that second. and ly went back to see whether its him. BUT. she din get to see la, obviously. and she says that i will feel regretful why din i called out to him just now. i dun regret. cos, i cannot imagine what the situation would turn out to be if i did call out to 'him'. all i can say is, i am not ready to face him like a normal friend. so long, after three years. zzzz.

turning 20 soon. i wanna sit down and cry already. so darn old. and my boss says i might not get an off day that day...

had a dinner with my classmates yesterday night. together with it, celebrated salie's and zehao's birthday. but somehow, it kinda became solely a celebration for zehao only. from this celebration, can really see how much kiran and his bunch of friends mean to him. it meant very much. an envy of course. i dun see me having so much friends being able to come down to surprise one another, to be so enthusiastic bout it. it was fun planning this surprise with kiran, although i seriously dunno him well at all. everything went well, except for the part when we needed to rush against time. and also. it was the first time, seeing so many of us being able to attend a dinner. i'm thankful that everything went smoothly.





















































































































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went working in school today. as a student helper, for the enrolment of the international students. supposed to meet peiwen and yas this morning, but we were all late! nevertheless, i went to kap all by myself to have mac's breaks! the new one. i think it's called mcgriddles?yummys. i wanna have that again! went bowling at csc after work. and peiwen said something to me,''something is so wrong today. you are like having pms. emo.'' well. i dunno what's gotten into me. but i know i am feeling unhappy. i dun feel like talking to anyone, dun feel like smiling, dun feel like being happy.

oh. mabbe i'm depressed. hah.
tell me 10 reasons why i should start smiling again.

and. it's so near yet so far. what went wrong for this friendship of ours?