goodbye 2008.

an eventful year i would say.i spent 15 mintues thinking of a right word to describe my year and it seems so difficult!i wouldnt say its sad cos i had fun at some point of the year.i wouldnt say it was depressing cos i am much luckier den some other people out there.i wouldnt say its smooth sailing cos i encountered some shites during the last semester in poly and in ipswich.

2008 is a year i think i would never forget that easily becos its the year whereby i graduated from ngee ann,attaining my EI cert,my friends giving me a surprise at the 0000hrs on my birthday,me making the decision to go to ipswich for my events management degree,my class guys going into ns,me being slam with personal problems when i was in ipswich,the amount of tears i shed,me making decisions on my own,incidents that makes me look at another better,meeting new people from parts of the world,etc... there's so much to list.but i guess these are all the so called highlights from what i can remember.

although,some things never change..

2008.
i realised how much i've grown.
from size(haha) till my mindset;
from black till colours;
from running away till facing the reality..

whatever that happened this year would be a lesson,a lesson to be learnt,would be an experience,an experience of a lifetime,would be a reminder,a reminder of not making the same mistakes again.

oh,and how could i forget to mention how i came by this eventful year of mine?thanks to these peepos!

thank you to my family.if they are not there for me,i dun think i will be able to pull through.
thank you cousin simin.for listening to me and giving me advice when i had those freaking shitty problems over at ipswich.
thank you LY.for being there to crap with me,i think i would have bore myself to death over at the OH-SO-NOBODY population in that suburb i am in, for being there when i really needed someone to talk to(thanks the LUCKY DRAGON card too! HAHA!),for listening me crying over shitty stuffs and of course, bitching bout other people's life too la huh!
thank you jie.for asking me how i am,even though we din really talked much cos you were working =X
thank you akwilan,shane,div for being such positive people!
thank you peiwen.for making me see things i dun even realised and letting me understand what are our priorities.

there are still so much to be thankful for..
thank god for everything.

come 2009.
it will be a brand new year.with more challenges ahead.
and my new year resolution?

is to smile more (:

HAPPY 20th, DEH!~
HAPPY 21st, GAB!

celebrated ly's birthday at wildwildwet this year.something out of the norm.hee.but the important part was that we had fun at wildwildwet!! (i supposed?though we were all exhausted.)(:
i got a lil burnt too.hahah.
to ly: hope you had fun la huh!and my apologies for this year's birthday plan.i think i left my enthusiastic soul of planning gatherings in the land called aussie.oh,and hope that you would love the present to bits!you're 20.its time to get something practical you know.hehe!~and i really do wish that you will be able to find someone to fall head over heels with and vice versa (((:

went down to gab's place for his 21st.had steamboat,slack around,camwhore a lil,sang and cut his birthday cake.din really managed to catch up with my poly mates though.and i realised something,even after 5 months of not seeing each other and going into ns,the mindset of my guy classmates are still the same.zzz.what and what.

to conclude the day,i am tired due to the much fun and laughter with the ladies!and getting a lil emo.i know that i am over it,i really am and that he is not worth it.but how come his actions,his words,his face affects me so much.even after such a long time,a long distance?zzzzzzzz.

i need to get out of this grey cloud,this past of mine.

shall blog when the feel is here.

getting all restless again.dammit.

i'm having flu,again.
and i think its quite bad this time?with all the unstoppable dripping nose and blocked nose and er,weird voice coming out when i talk.

zzz.

i seriously need to get down to exercising and to have a healthy diet drawn out for me.after yesterday's swensens with my cousins,i feel so sick of chips,or rather,fries.heh.
but,i wun mind trying the mega mcspicy.heee.i bet ly is like mumbling to herself that i am not thinking straight.haha.

and i realised,i am back for 2 weeks already..i seriously need to meet up with these peeps!
HUANS,SIPEI,MEIY,SHIN,SHER,WANLI,MEICHIN,DEBBIE,3F03!!!!
ly,lums,yas! more dates!!!


off to genting on sunday to celebrate my daddy's birthday! ((:

till then..

i am going crazy already.

in no mood to talk,in no right mind to discuss.
all in all,it amounts up to all the heartbreaking reality that i am not able to help much in this oh-so complicated situation.

so,tell me.what makes a perfect eldest sister?
i wanna take off some burden from my parents,to be a listening ear for my siblings,but everything seem so wrong right now.not only i am adding on stress or burden to my parents,i realised that i am not a sister that my siblings might be able to trust.just as much as i am typing this,tears are like welling up and i fighting it back to cry,to be weak,to be so tad helpless..

i think i am losing it.seriously losing it..

but i am thankful for my cousins,ly and shane for being here.for listening,for giving advices,for being concern,for everything...

where's my happy holidays?

whats a merry merry christmas?

feeling troubled now.having some problems with my youngest sis.she is closing herself out to us and we are not able to do anything.and yes,she is in a relationship.one that i do not really agree with.for one,that guy is 24 this year.and she is only, not even 16. her life basically revolves around him.and i wonder what does this guy have in him to make her fall head over heels with him.i worries me because apparently what this guy does affects her emotionally.like entirely.i have no more ideas what i should do about this situation anymore.i talked to her,tried to compromise,but its not working.it takes 2 hands to clap,to make the situation better.but she is betraying the trust that i give her.she thinks that the world is in her hands and it seems to me that she is taking all these for granted.

god,help her.pls.

快点闪一边
我们在庆功宴
谁叫你还搞不清楚
我跟你的差别
Yeah 我是 Superman
Yeah 我是 Superman
Yeah 我是 Superman
Yeah 你是 Loser

abstracted from 倪子岡 - Superman (theme from HOT SHOT)
catchy song! i LIKE~

I STILL NEED A PART TIME JOB!!!

and just as thought my day was gonna end just like that,YOU surprised me (((:

back in sg.

and celebrated yasmin's 21st!

might not blog often.or maybe for now.

cos,i am feeling a little irritated from the earache and lil jetlag.