will be off to sydney tomorrow!

till den..

in the mood for love?

somethings are better to be left unsaid?and i realise,i am trying to get away from one and to the other.
talk bout thinking too much..

hmmm.assignments for this term is officially over.but.it ended on a unhappy note for me.tell me,who would want to collaborate with me for projects anymore?

my apologies.i know its not okay.when you say its really okay.
am i being sensitive den?

i hope that i would not regret bout my decisions.

full of guilt

ok.this is what happens when all of us are bored and needs a break from everything.

we go crazy.hahas.

one presentation down,left with my grant application.

this grant application made me tear,cos i am filled with so much guilt.i am thankful that i have such understanding groupmates,but i think they spoil me too much and they are working way too hard and all i get from them is to ask me to rest.

sorry and thanks guys.it meant alot to me. (:

thank you,sandy for hearing me out tonight.

thanks cheesy for asking me to stop wallowing in self pitiness and to rest early.

something left me wondering though...

i wonder,why wasn't you but the other?

on the other note.i called char today!cos i know that she would be at work.heh heh heh.jay chou new album is out for preorder already.and so i went crazy,asking her to preorder it today,which she did!at first she was not that willing though,saying that she got no money.so.i called my mom to transfer money to her so that she could preorder it for me.hehehehehe.

how efficient i am.

魔杰座!

i'll be waiting.

spare-tyre.

feeling lousy now.
with 2 assignments due in 2 consecutive days.but i know,it would be over soon enough.

but its not the assignments making me feeling like this.
cos.i.am.feeling.left.out.again.
all becos of the closeness i feel from you guys,the conversation,the dinners,everything.
making me feel a lil regretful of my choices now..


p/s/s*
To her:
zzz.and why say you would help when you wouldn't?
thank you so much.
its meant to be sarcastic.zzz.
TAKE THAT.

下雨天-南拳妈妈

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

full swing.

ITS SHOWTIME.

these 2 weeks will be my last chiong for my assignments before mid term break!
one more presentation, one more essay and one grant application to go!
the crazy thing is..the deadlines are all together.omg.

going into full swing mode now.
i know i can do it.

seeing you makes me think of things.but i tell myself,dun stray.

李玖哲 - 死结

离不开的 却离开
抓不住想抓的爱
怪自己活该

我的未来 你不来
我的故事很无奈
我注定失败

我们的对话 你悄悄离了线
我们的热线 今后断了线
你在山的那边 那么遥远
你说再见 宣判了终点

你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
你带走的快乐 我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜

你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结

无心伤害却伤害
空白以后才明白
原来这是爱

你的心我最能猜
你的爱我被淘汰
我注定悲哀

我们的对话 你悄悄离了线
我们的热线 今后断了线
你在山的那边 那么遥远
你说再见 宣判了终点

你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
你带走的快乐 我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜

你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单 在我的世界
找不到你的我 已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结

你打了死结..

thankful.

thanks evelyn for the herbal soup! (: (:

it was yummy.hehe.

hmmm.things over here are still hanging in suspense.seriously.i pray that this group of teenagers woould just disappear into thin air and never come back.i am not taking it right anymore.on the verge of going crazy.

something happened yesterday night again.sam and louis called me to check out from my windows cos they said jc heard some voices outside and a guy in red shirt.i freaked out.and asked some of my housemates to follow me to my room as i check out.its stupid.i know.but i dun care anymore.i've become such a coward after this incident.cant sleep properly,being so paranoid.but.the climax was not bout me being cowardly.it was one of my housemate,whom i shall not name,was trying to act heroic by saying,''let me go out and check around.''i was stunned,shocked and when i was able to talk,i said to her,''dun open the door.''.like HELLO?no brains huh?we dun wanna let them know that we know they are here,but here you are,trying to act hero,to spoil the plan?i was freakingly PISSED.yes,PISSED.i wanted to SHOUT her head off.zzz.but,thank goodness,no one was there.

cheesy called me.cos her msn died on her.and she called for gossip,apparently it came from my msn nick.HAHA.and it was the first time talking to someone on the phone for 34minutes(according to what she said), over here.i miss the hours of talking on the phone back home.

gee and xinwei's off to serve the nation le!how fast can time pass.

uncertainty.

some shite happened yesterday and i am still shaken with fear.first time in my life i am so afraid,its so unlike me.

i saw these 2 teenage boys loitering outside my accomodation when i was bout to close my window in the evening.i dunno why,i just squat down when i saw them,with my heart beating so fast.i did not bother so much bout it and continued with my stuff as per normal.during dinner i told my housemates bout it and remind them to lock their doors and windows as precaution.just after i said,we hear our doorbell ring.and after that our landlord came out and told us that something just happened at the other house.2 guys showed up outside jc's room with their face masked up and knives on their hand.i was a lil freaked at that time and i told her that i saw them in the evening outside our house.apparently,they were already here since afternoon..

police came and go after taking our statements and at this point of time, we were already freaking out.to me,i was already shivering with fear.

like an hour later,i heard jc and louis shouting.i rushed to the window to see what was happening and i saw miles and jc chasing someone.as they were talking outside the house,i could hear what they were talking and overheard that the 2 guys were standing outside their house watching them.police came back again.took their statements again.and left..

our owner just went back to their room and continue with their sleep,which was a total zzz,leaving all of us shaking with fear,with the amount of uncertainty of what is gonna happen next..

i told ly i wanted to be back in singapore at this moment.
i am seriously freaking out.i cant even do anything properly at this time.even at the slightest sound,it would make me jump.and the feeling sucks when i know they are still out there and i cant do anything.

and.the most exaggerated thing is,i am sleeping with a fork and penknife at my bedside.

god,pls dun let anymore things happen to the bunch of us. ):

tough.

had my mid term exam for acct1101 already and my tutor says there are failures.i am not hoping much though.

so 2 more assignments and 1 more presentation before the hello, to sydney! (:
i need to get away from here,due to some reasons..

hmmm.some stuff are happening again.and its not resloved in the first place.so what?when you dun fancy the other?i am so sure that i am not that her.so,stop classifying me under that oh-so-irritating category.i realised that i can trust no one but myself already.i thought i found one whom i can rant to,but i guess its not.what goes around,comes around all over.whats more is that..the things that goes around can be so easily misunderstood.but.its no one's fault but mine own.i deserved it.

so much i wanna say.but its all in my head..
*ly,lums:will tell you on skype another time.

decided to move out from my current accomodation and moved to another.thank god my dad could empathise with me.(:

choices.

accounting mid year is on saturday and i have not even started studying yet.dun ask me why,cos i am asking myself that question too.so yeah.
sports at UQ on saturday evening.hope i am able to get everything out from my system.praying hard for a fine weather too.
watching movie in a cinema on sunday,following by a movie from a dvd at louis's place.nothings confirmed yet though.
after sunday would be monday.thats when the real battle starts.
when the battle ends..

sydney,here i come!

having quite alot of stuff inside my head recently and i really feel like going back to sg at this moment.no one back home understands how much i dun wanna continue staying at this accomodation.i am so unhappy bout it now.i just wanna move.but i do not know where i should move too.so much uncertainties too.i guess i should be independent.not to rely on anyone..

not looking forward to anything,anymore.

unhappiness.

i am feeling so unhappy now...

tears,tears and more tears.

thoughts.

one individual assignment down!this first assignment i have is so trecherous that i have no comments.stayed up till the wee early in mornings in 2 consecutive days and ended up with a week's sleeping disorder.goodness.but all is well now i suppose..

coming up would be my presentation for biz culture.ahhhhh.i am like very panicky over this now.its like the first time i am losing confidence for my presentation skills.not that it was that good anyway. ):

yups,before i get to some shitty stuff,just to update on what i have been doing for the past.

anita's birthday dinner @ holiday inn














had dinner at this restaurant( i forgot whats the name) with this bunch of people.fun to hang out with though,lotsa entertainment.hehe.dinner was great with a great ambience.after dinner,we headed down to huiying's place for movie, ' I am Sam.'















went for riverfest 2008, its something like a celebration to welcome spring.and yeah,winter is over,spring is here.weather is kinda ok for now,but i think i would need a fan soon.getting kinda humid though.yups,and before riverfest,we went to jindalee's factory outlet.not much stuff,but i managed to get some.amazing.the bus journey back to indoorpilly train station was so long because we took the bus in the wrong direction.for a moment i thought that we would miss the riverfire.


time for the shitty stuff.
one of my housemate's stuff was stolen by dunno who.and it freaks me out.it happened at night,and apparently,that person went by the back door which is even freakier because only we,staying here would know that they dun lock that back door.zzz.and everything happened so quick.they're saying that this person had been observing our house for a long time already...

and another of my housemate got terminated by our landlord over a misunderstanding.that is so.erm,i dunno whats that word to describe.its like not even her fault and he did not even bothered listening to an explanation and just slam the door right on their face.i could even feel how tight the atmosphere was.another zzz.

accounting mid year is on this saturday and i am not prepared.
my friends are goinG to harbour town this saturday and i am gonna miss it.but there is no one to blame but myself.


time for shittier stuff.
this is so gonna be vulgar with lots of fuck here and there..
something happened at home and i am like worried sick over this side.anyway,my family and relatives celebrated my grandma's birthday on sunday and as usual,for her birthday,we would get her a set of clothes.yups,its like a MUST thing already.and so,sunday went and monday came..

i dunno what really happened but if my grandma breaks down and cry and my eldest uncle gotta go up and settle it,i reckon it to be anything good.

i heard from my sister that fucking china woman apparently chased her own daugther,which is my cousin and my grandma out of the house.for my cousin,i pity her.like seriously,for some moments,i even thought of calling the social service when i am in singapore.she gets caned for not topping the class,she gets no rest from studying and she gets pressured by that fucking woman all the time.my sis said that my cousin attempted to jumped off the building when she was chased out and was stopped by my grandma.and before running out,my grandma said to that fucking woman ,'stop caning her,because she is my grandchildren,it would kill her.'she just replied,'its my daughter,its my business.'

SO ITS YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS RIGHT,DEN JUST LET MY GRANDMA COME DOWN AND STAY WITH US.WHY MAKE SO MUCH NOISE?! I CAN IMAGINE WHY ALL YOUR MAIDS LEFT YOU.YOU STUPID FUCKING WOMAN.

and she quarrelled with my grandma over that present my parents got her.i seriously think that she is jealous la.SO MY GRANDMA PREFERS THE CLOTHES THAT WE BOUGHT FOR HER DEN YOU ARE NOT HAPPY?COME ONE MAN,YOU ARE SUCHA KID.CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE A MOTHER OF TWO..

BUT.if you contd to ill treat your daughter,you might become a mother of one soon.
and OH,did i mention that she is so freaking biased towards her SON?ya.SON.zzz.boasting around right?!even your son is like your pattern now.OH,so alike.zzzz.i think you shld just being that proud of everything.if you are rich enough,AFFORD A MAID.(or Ministry of Manpower forbid you from doing that already?)or even,MOVE TO A CONDO!

FLAUNT YOUR WEALTH FOR ALL I CARE.
just fuck off.and i think that my uncle would be better off without her.let her just runaway la.

fucking attention seeker.

*anyone got any idea how i can help my cousin?it pains me to hear that she is suffering when she is like only 12?
what happened to all the happy childhood memories?